First Update in almost a year! wowzah!

Well quick update on my life:
I had to give away my dog =(, my best friends sister gave me a kitten. He is mostly black with a little bit of white on his chest and belly. I called him Shadow and am going to take him with me when I move out!
I want to move out, soon.
I have finished school! yay! thank god that was a whole lot of stress I didn't need, but hey, I did it, I survived college, I was almost going to leave halfway through the year but I am glad I didnt.
uhm, I am now 18 yay! whoo! out partying for the win!
I am defintley a lot happier now days, now that I don't have the whole school thing going on, its awesome less stress = happier Kimmy! of course I still have things that stress me out but not like school.
I still want to become a tattoo artist one day, but haven't actually drawn anything in a little while but that will change soon =D I have plans and many ideas just wanting to come out.

Well thats all, have a completely free day today, no work just cooked cake with mum. But tomorrow I start community service =( okay... its not community service its just Job Search Training but not somthing I look forward to... stuck in a room full of bogans for three and a half hours four days a week... bleh. I will update tomorrow night let yas know how it goes. It will be such a complete waste of time though.
anyways Bye!

Here is a picture of my new kitten Shadow.

Depressed ......... Again

I am not Emo, this is just the way I have been feeling, so if you are gonna leave comments going ewwwww emo, then fuck off, I dont need your shit, I am just going through too much shit myself, along with normal life problems.

I hate being me sometimes, I have been brooding way too much on stuff, like dads death, and other family members. I think my family issues are just catching up on me lately, I dunno I'm just way too down on myself, I have no confidence, and I just suck... big time.

I hate the way I look, I'm frigging ugly and fat! I hate it!
I know how big I am no matter what other people say, I know that they lie just to make me feel better. I mean, your own mum cannot say YOUR FAT, or YOUR TOTALLY RIGHT GO LOOSE SOME WEIGHT FATTY! Argh! I am so ashamed about how I look, I cant stand it!
I have actually been trying to do something about it, but I think its just time for me to go into emergency mode, its not good feeling crap every time you look in the mirror, or avoiding cameras just so you don't have to face up to what you really look like.... I hate me.

I hate the way i am, it sucks
I feel so alone at the moment, I feel like none of my friends would care if I just disappeared of the face of the earth. I mean, its not like any of them pay much attention to me any more, maybe I have just gotten too depressed to be around them, though you would think they would ask whats wrong if they noticed my change in attitude.
I am such a loner lately, I just don't want to go any where, I would rather sit around on my fat arse in my room doing shit all. I suck. I miss my friends, but don't want to go out, I feel like Ive lost all of my artistic ability, I don't read any more I find no joy in it. I feel left out.

*sigh* I hate life sometimes.



Oh well, I suppose I will get over it eventually.

I have Kels 18th on saturday, so maybe that will be okay... I dunno we will see, I know that one of my ex friends who hates me at the moment is going, so i'm worrying about that.
Im broke, so I dunno how I am going to be able to afford everything, I have to find a way home as well, I asked Katie if I could get a lift to work/home with her the next day, but she said she doesn't know, so if I cant get home, I'm screwed, means I will have to miss out on something else again.
Nothing seems to be working my way. Its hard living in a family where none of the members can drive, mum has epilepsy and isn't allowed to drive, I am unable to afford to go for driving lessons at the moment, and my sis and brother are too young to drive.

Im over ranting about my shit life now, I cant be fucked.

Bye

Homework Overload!

Well! my homework is officially crushing me!
I have 3 essays, have to cut and burn music, do some drawing studies, read a book, watch a movie, and a whole heap of other work! Most of this all due next week! I am going to drown in it I swear! Who knew year 12 would be soo busy already!??!
Oh well, I will survive I suppose.

Am going to Mickays birthday party tonight, should be fun, give me a chance to unwind before work again tomorrow and school on Monday lol.

Mum got an awesome new tattoo! Its soo pretty my favorite out of all of her tattoo's. Its a butterfly with blue and white in it. It just makes me want to get a tattoo even more! I love tattooing. I will put a picture of it up later, I gotta get a good one because the pictures I already have are quite dark and you cant see the color, which is what makes it awesome!

Oh for my 18th birthday I have decided to make it a dress up party! Everyone I have told so far think its a cool idea! Im gonna go as a sexy pirate lol! gotta love pirates! I know that Ally is going as a vampire, My sister jess is going as a cat! I dunno what everyone else is gonna go as, but my birthday is not until August, so its okay. =D

The other day after school, Ally, Dan, Tash, Katie, Jess (My sis) and myself, went into "Northgate Shopping Centre" to just hang around, went to "Sanity", and "Whats New" and I picked out an awesome top which I am gonna buy next week with my pay it had two huge dice on the side! So awesome., and here is a picture of Me, Tash, and Katie in "Sanity"!




Well thats all from me for now!!

Bye!

First Blog

Ben

Well! this is my first ever blog! go me! lol.

I seriously dont know what to write, and I kinda don't want to rant on about some crappy thing in my first ever blog, ya know doesn't make me seem nice, would probably make me seem all Emo or something.

Well, instead i'm gonna talk about me! (is not self - centered)

I live with my mum, sister Jessica and my brother Alex. I have a dog; Ben, he is mine.
We also have 2 cats; Ozzy and Davey, a bird; Poppet, and two fish (they are my brothers) Homer and Moe.. yess he is a huge Simpson's fan.
I get along pretty well with my family, which is good! buut of course they get on my nerves! so there might be a few rants about how stupid they are ect.

I love art, I want to be a Tattoo Artist one day, and am currently trying to improve my drawings, and am making a portfolio to hand into a professional. You can see some of my stuff at deviantart.com angeldevil90.deviantart.com.

Well, thats all Im gonna write for today! I shall leave ya with a picture! of me and my sister. Lol this is just so yas know what I look like and such!


Jess and I